"This is the stupidest thing I have ever done."
---me, 12/24/03, during our all cousins outside photo...what?!
"I'll do a commercial - 'spring break '04! aah!' "
---cousin Matt, 12/24/03, lifting up his shirt..."Who wants to see THAT?!" ---his mom, Aunt Barb
"I believe / that my life's gonna see / the love I give / return to me"
---John Mayer
December 24, 2003
time 10:22 pm
feeling content
music
same
ready for ?
next sleep
Note: so I wrote this as we waited for church to begin today, and as always, there is more to say and more to explain...but all of that will have to wait. This is just for Christmas Eve.
"If this is going to work, I need you to not just believe in me. I need you to believe in you, too."
It's Christmas. You're lucky if you have a hand to hold, a place to call home, someone or someones to hear all you share or that which scares you. You're lucky to have love.
Love, actually. It's been far too easy - I've MADE it far too easy - this season to let myself get wrapped up in me and all the 'problems' I invent and pull in. But what I always aim to do, and how I've failed this year, is in letting it all go and making the rest more important. It's not even about me being lucky, although undoubtedly I am, over and over and for always; but about the rest of the world and the whole realm of those beyond and the dreams and hopes and fears and love around.
A child was born, this much most will agree with. But in the end, what really matters is that we can believe in love, reach out, and give even just a little bit. So perhaps I've fallen short in looking beyond, maybe I've failed in giving out. But I guess if you can believe in love, believe in what glory may come, there is always hope for change and betterment and a bright future.
So this is what I wish you: a merry holiday, a bright future, and love for always. Because it's Christmas, and if you can have these things, you're lucky. Lucky to have love.
---Lexi
What You Need To Believe