"All year I've been screaming that I don't get it and that it all seems so cruel and pointless, and I don't get it quite yet, but it's starting to come together. I'm changing, and the world I live in is changing, but I don't know what it's all changing into. It could be like a catipillar turning into a butterfly (SUPER LAME ANAOLOGY.) But it could also be like a Mogwai turning into a Gremlin (BETTER ANAOLOGY.) Or it could be simply Mike Mason turning into Mike Mason (SEEMINGLY PROFOUND ANALOGY THAT'S REALLY JUST BULLSHIT.) So there you have it folks. I'd like to think I've made it through the hard part, but I'm holding my breath just in case. 1.5 more weeks."
—Michael, on his site
"Shit...I've had an awesome year. "
—Me, this morning, to Jeff, after watching the 'year in review' on the news...people had some terrible things happen this year, so I oughtn't be complaining one bit
"It is our civic duty...to BANG the BOOTY!"
—Some FOABH, for good measure ;)
December 30, 2005
EOTYU (End Of The Year Update)
time 10:52 Am feeling hungry wearing blue ae sweater, also from Jeffrey music mpr reading whatever ready for pre-lunch next work time/diana's thing
Well oh well. I am not in the best writerly mood to be doing this, AND I am writing this in a Ruby-based text editor right now (meaning, 'this' and 'and' are showing up all weird-like)(wow I sound like a newbie, LOL), but my bosses are all at a VI meeting with a VI (the "I" in this case signifies 'irritating'! haha) client right now, it's snowing buckets, and while Ruby calls my name, the new site doth do so more.
Now I have to stop writing in SciTE because it's making my letters just tooooo weird.
Anyway. Now I JUST came back to this after six hours away doing Ruby and then cleaning the office. This place is a dump. Naw just kidding but that's what we all/always say, ha. And as for Ruby, WTF?!?! is the ODBC user password?! Seriously!! I am so bad at this right now.
Okay now you're going to hate me but I have to go home now. Maybe I'll finish this 2-nite (to use' tween'...oh come on Diana I know you love it!) whilst Jeff is listening to the Gophs play hockey and I'm getting wasted off of wine I just ganked from work. YESSSSS.
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Wow. I'm back. Talk about a self-fulfilling prophecy. It is now 9:00 pm, still Friday. I am home. I am listening to the Gopher game with Jeff. We've drank down this bottle of wine in no time, probably because it is better than the $7 bottles I usually peruse, and just shared a shot of vodka. Or three. BWAHAHA. Sarah's going to be soooo mad. Anyway. "The Gophers just made four unanswered goals in a row. You must talk about that in your update," Jeff said, and now he says, "Don't quote me verbatim like that!" Clearly I am disobeying these false 'orders', partially due to vodka but more partially (which makes no sense, I realize) due to my personality. BITCHES!!
Pretty soon I'll get to the EOY Update. Realize it will be messed up due to my semi-inebriation. This is kind of fun. I kind of gave up drinking when I turned 21 (oh! the irony!), and really this year, because it's a waste of my time and calories. But here I am, hahaha.
And. Perhaps it is appropriate that I am doing the 2005 updated somewhat tipsy. As it was such a dumb year in some ways (note: good in others), perhaps killing my brain (not Brian) cells is a better way to do this.
"I want milk, but milk and wine? Eh." -Lexi "Yeah, cookies and wine?" -Jeff, just now. Well whatever bitch. Here we go.
So, I bring you: the 2005 update!!!
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Inline styles are sleazy, but 'p align=center' is even sleazier. God I am such a web snob!! Okay. THE UPDATE:
GOOD STUFF: Cookies. Diana. Wednesdays with Diana, to be specific. I heart her more than ever. Visiting Sarah and Trent in Chicago. God I miss her. Two years with Jeffrey. My Grandma's 80th birthday celebration this summer. My family. Being a completely independent, self-serving (wait: is that good?!) adult. Getting hired full-on at Olive. Olive. My SS at Olive this year (Peter with his Legos!). My trip to see Katy and Rob...this was a TRUE highlight, and a trip I will always, always remember. People coming out of the woodwork, aka 'the wired world', or something (Sharan, Daniel [kind of], Matt, Andrea, Katie Dahl, Lynni [kind of], Maggie, Corbett, Dan, and I think that's it). Katy, Diana, and Sarah. Jeff. Oh wait I already said those, haha. JENNY. Jenny's Matt - they are so cute together. Learning to skate backwards (thanks Jeffrey!). The weekend with Jenny and Matt up here. Moving into my own apartment. Ditching people that weren't worth my time (honestly!). The dinner at Pazzzaluna with Olive. Rob, Tom, Paul, Jackie, Peter, and Salena (Salena who saved my LIFE!). The Halloween party we had at my apartment. Thank Pod. Christie's wedding and all of the fun that went along with it. Being Christie's bridesmaid. Christie's cool ass husband she brought to our family, yay! Waning's baby. I suppose I should take the time to explain that Waning is an internet friend, so, along with that, internet friends. HA!!! Now I have you all scared.
"Babes you're quoting everything I say," Jeff says. "I do not appreciate that." He just came over with a bit of a tispy grin on his face, ha ha ha.
MORE GOOD STUFF: My mom being happier. My dad being the Big Boss (whether he likes it or not, hahaha!). Jenny getting her first job. Jenny working for the space place. Jenny NOT moving to Houston. Jenny being my JJ. Stephie having some time off, some sweet interviews, and a very prestigious job at an interesting place. My cousins (OFCOURSE!). Jeff being my JJ. TOO MANY Js, hahaha. Fiber optic Christmas tree. BRYNN at work (Rob's girl), I just love her so much. Learning CSS and XHTML and fake learning Ruby. Being in what I'd say is pretty good shape. Even though right now I'm eating cookies. YUM. Christmas. Up North...that was the bomb! Spending a week designing a sled flying off a hill for work, hahaha. Mentee. Tutoring my Somali kids (why won't she get back to me, dammit?!). Margaret's and Trevor's wedding, and all of our crazy dancing. EVERYONE'S damn wedding, for that matter! LOL. Staying in touch with school friends. Trying gymnastics again...sort of. Kickball games with Target. Saints game with my family, and the one with work, and the one with Jeff's dad - yessss! Those were awesome. STATE FAIR with Jeff and then with familia again. WOO HOO. Being more or less in control of my destiny (or am I?!). Watching fireworks from Jeff's mom's roof on the fourth of July. Hanging out with my cousin Ian. Jenny and Elizabeth's graduations (yeah!). More cousins wanting to be designers. Michael being so in sync with my own thoughts that sometimes I just looked at his site to understand myself. Figuring a few things out.
And other things, but that's about all I can give ya right now.
BAD STUFF: Shadow died. 2005 just kind of sucked to be honest. OK, NO, it did NOT suck, but it was definitely A GREAT COSMIC JOKE in many ways, as to which Michael referred. If you read where else I update, you would know. (Ha! Now I'm just being a big tease. Ha.) You would know how messed up I was for a great deal of this year (starting with, for some reason, our visit to Margaret's house in May. WTF.). How unsure I felt and how the terrible joke of 2005 seemed to be me being out of college and dealing with being a woman in the world of work and normalcy. Car crap. My road rage developing into a monster-like category. Being sooooo scared of gymnastics that I have to 'retire' in a way. Not working with kids really, or gymnastics. BUSH UGH BUSH UGH BUSH UGGGGGH! THIS STUPID GODDAMN 'WAR' UGGGGHHH!! THIS WHOLE GODDAMN COUNTRY! ITS STUPIDITY WITH GAY RIGHTS! THE DEATHLY RELIGIOUS 'RIGHT' (WRONG!)! STUPID DEMS NOT BEING ABLE TO WIN AN ELECTION! OMG I can't even get started on that right now. YUCK. Missing my family sooooo much it hurts sometimes, but then being frustrated at home at times (they know what I'm talking about!). Just missing Madison. Weird HS nostalgia (maybe this isn't bad, but just weird?). Missing Katy. Missing Stephie. Missing Jenny. Missing Sarah. 2005 just being plain WEIRD.
BUT I MUST NOTE that I had an incredibly AWESOME year compared to almost 88% of everyone in this whole world. Whoops I meant to type 99%. Anyway. No tsunami. No earthquake. No hurricane. No bombs. No fear. No death. No pain. Lots of love, productivity (er, sort of), warmth, and happiness. Safety. Family. Friends. Pretty much I am one of the luckiest girls alive...
And with that, here's to an awesome 2006, for me, for you, for everyone next door. I just know it; I just know it's going to be great.
(P.S. Jeff just made me go put in pigtails. He sure is one lucky SOAB. Have a great weekend everyone, and try not to be too distubed by my update.)
—Lexi