""And frankly, I really don't think all that time and energy I spent being concerned with [that] was a waste. Sometimes you have to experience something to understand it and grow. You can't just stand on the edge and watch.
"...I find it hard / to explain how I got here / I think I can I think I can / and then again I will falter / Dream..." ---Dave Matthews Band, I am NOT THAT OBSESSED WITH THEM everyone, I just like this CD/this song a lot!!! (I am much more obsessed with Chicago.)
"...all that matters is that I get to have CAKE!" ---Jenny Henny Jane
April 24, 2003
time 11:28 am feeling !excelente! reading nothing but the paper for now wearing khakis, red shirt...trying to look nice/wear good luck colors for my 'presentation' in an hour music Garbage v 2.0 and DMB ready for RODEO on Friday! next ? class in an hour...laze around for once til then :)
FELIZ CUMPLEANOS little Jennifer Jane! She turns 20 today (though it's nearing tomorrow over there in Spain/Italy/wherever) so be sure to think of her. You can drop her a line at jjmasonNOSPAM@students.wisc.edu. Just remove the NOSPAM part before actually emailing her!
So I cut off that last update, I was in class and two things happened, one is that I suddenly I became dead tired and two is that my teacher, Sue, started walking around seeing what we were 'working' on. Since the last time I had been on the Internet when a teacher 'checked' on my 'progress' I was forced to submit to looking at all of his stupid work, I thought it wasn't a good idea to tempt fate yet again. Although I do appreciate Sue Chu so much more than the alternative man of whom I speak...nevermind.
OK so where was I? I had an awesome weekend and am looking for a good, if schoolwork-filled, one coming right up here. So last weekend I was home for Easter, that was definitely a good time. Friday I got to go out to breakfast with my mom. Also Friday Matt was kind enough to help me with all of my stupid/cool projects and go shopping/build things/just hang out with me. THANK YOU MATT! What a sweetheart. We then had our first modeling shoot, for my Attire: Formal Pajamas thing. Now let's get this straight, I seriously am 'marketing' this line of clothing for my packaging ('packaging' my eye, but whatever) class, and it is all based on our formal pajama party May 9. It's pretty funny though because I am totally not taking this last project seriously at all, I am in fact making fun of it by marketing something totally off the wall, but I don't care and like Matt knows what I like to say best to my teachers (well, in my mind, not necessarily out loud, though sometimes that happens too, you just never know!) is "You can kiss my ass."
Speaking of 'you can kiss my ass' and kissing, my cousin Mike has mono. Sad! He is being pretty funny about it though, check out his site here to RAAI (read all about it). Anyway, try to avoid kissing him, I know it's difficult though.
OK back to formal pajama photo shoot/pre-party. So Christy, Maggie, Jacob, Katy, Thom, Bryan, Matt, and even Chris and Shelley participated, it was an awesome photo shoot. Matt and Thom were so funny especially, and Shelley was very good, probably because she has prior modeling experience (w/ me in St. Barth's, haha). Anyway I got some awesome photos and then we paid ourselves in liquor. Whew! A good time for all.
Saturday I enjoyed a nice leisurely breakfast at OPH just Matt and I, and the millions of little kids that were there. Well not millions, but a great deal of kids were there, and they were of course so cute. Seriously, I am a kidnapper in the making. I LOVE kids, they are so funny, especially the kids I teach, I am afraid that one day I'll take them in the car home with me and we'll have to be on the lam, just a little kid and I. Probably Bella, or Sacco, or Heather. Or little Maddy! People in my studios think I am obsessed with little kids, which I am, but I don't want them to know the truth. It's freakin' me out man. OK anyway. Back to weekend. Gosh I am crazy right now. So yeah, then we hung out, napped, and eventually went to dinner for my mom's birthday, which was a good time, then just relaxed Saturday night. Sunday was Mason Easter, Matt's first experience in Masonland of Baraboo, and he seemed to enjoy himself, especially at our second photo shoot of the weekend with Chloe, Rachel, and Lizard, whom were excellent as well. Baby Zeketh was there and I even got to hold him, what a sweetie. Although people think I have baby lust but I find it's more of 'little kid lust' (God that sounds horrible, please don't hate me) because babies cannot talk to me and little kids can. Or something. Anyway and Chloe was as usual the hit of the weekend, when it comes to my cousins I never thought I would say this but she is definitely the most like me, that's pretty scary as she's only 9...hahaha. She is just as crazy as I am, and sarcastic and sadistic as well. Like I said, scary. So that was an excellent way to end my weekend, and enjoy Easter! OH YEAH and my sister Stephie sent me an amazing Easter basket, my only one, and always the best one, thank you so much! She is way too nice to JJ (Jenny Jane) and I.
Now I am back in MN land for a few weeks, and back in the hell of school, although now I am climbing out of my MANIC PANIC mode I was in just a few days ago. Seriously, like I said, I've been a madwoman, but now things are stabilizing. Hopefully things will go well tonight at Kinko's and I'll be back to normal. I've gotten on average 5 to 6 hours of sleep a night with no weekend reprieve for at least two weeks, and it's made me psychotic. That's okay, it's been fun, but time to be normal somehow (if that's possible). I am working on it.
And now this weekend! Well this week itself has been really fun, studios were very funny, especially yesterday when Steven tried to query me about my project and Monday night when Kristin and hung out in the lab/'got work done'. I love my little roommate, roommateS that is, and I will miss them very much this summer :(. Sad. A few more weeks though, I can't get ahead of myself though that is my specialty. OH YEAH and I did overunders to handstand! That's a D! Now I have to do it without the mat.
OK so tomorrow is going to be really fun because gymnastics club is going out country line dancing!! Note that it is NOT sponsored by the school, anyway, it is going to be a great time. I am so excited, I love acting stupid in public (in case you hadn't noticed)! And I love my team. Then it's going to be nice out this weekend, so hopefully I can kick my projects' asses and then do the rest of my work outside. YEAH and YEAH.
Holy shit, this is going to be the longest update ever. OH WELL deal. You can always just not read....anyway. So about the other quotes, now that I have a few hours on my hands and I can just relax, I have been thinking (really! you're shocked). I had some very weird dreams last night, which I canNOT share so don't ask, and that always brings weirder thoughts into my head. And here are some of them: I enjoy college. I really do. And I am finally beginning (after three years, I know) to feel like MN is partly my home. I know, I can't believe it either. Mostly I have seen college as a good opportunity, a time for learning and gymnastics and stuff, but also as a huge burden that separates me from my sweet one. Now, don't get me wrong, college still prevents me from being with my love, which is devastating, but now that we have just one year and a few weeks left of this separation, I can feel it all lifting and I can explore what I have here, finally. I am so certain now of our time together post college, because we are now almost there, that I can relax a little bit about my life.
So of course, as with everything in my life, it is a paradox. I can now finally enjoy school as it wraps up simply because it IS wrapping up. That doesn't make sense at all...then again, what really does? I am so close to being with Matt again, I can feel it, and this knowledge lifts my heart and makes me fly. How can I explain? There are so many experiences here, so many opportunities, and no, I'm not talking educational-wise, though I suppose that's an option too. But more that I'm in a lucky place, that I have the chance to get four hours of sleep if I want because if I don't want to go to class I don't have to (though I always do), that I can pick and choose my life and my days and my breaks and my time. "I am mine", as Pearl Jam says, and the time in my life when I can experience this independence will fade. And that too will be a good thing, because it means I will be with the one I love, have a family, and move on to a different part of my life. But it's always important for me to remember that right now, right here, is wonderful, and that everything is going to be okay. Or more than that.
And now, get your game face on. It's presentation time...have to get going on the 'Lexi Shock and Awe' campaign. Enjoy yourselves this weekend, and be good to the Earth.
---Lexi
Life is experience.
There's no such thing as wasting time.
You learn from everything you do." ---
---Nicole from Girl Gives Birth To Own Prom Date
Manic Panic and Baby JJ Turns 20!