"I need to go home. I am going to go home and update my website." ---me, last night "What's your website Lexi?" ---ATOM/Adam/whoever he is"I don't have a website." ---...you can't tell just anyone.

"I REALLY NEED YOU TONIGHT! / Forever's gonna start tonight / forever's gonna start tonight / once upon a time I was fallin' in love / now I'm only falling apart / nothing I can say / total eclipse of the heart" ---the best song of the moment!

May 4, 2003
Don't Encourage Me

time 1:10 pm feeling dazed reading Sunday paper wearing Cats shirt, pajama pants music TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART ready for something to eat next attempt to write paper once again

OK, so I wasn't going to put up that crazy update from yesterday, but two things encouraged me (and DON'T encourage me, as I kept commanding people yesterday). One, I am still amazed that I was able to write HTML last night, so I have to share this amazement. Two, I told Kristin I wasn't going to put it up and she's all, no, put it up, and I said, well isn't it pretty pathetic though to update drunkenly, and she said, well you update all the time anyway...implying that THAT was pathetic in and of itself....which it IS....so hahaha. That was inspiring, or something.

So today so far I have written my capstone thing, called Jenny, and read the comics. That is pretty good. Next on the agenda: finish take-home test; catch up on emails; start studying for Organization/Management; and maybe go swimming. And according to Diana, I have to 'repent' or something tonight (yeah right), so maybe that too. So far, so good!

Alright, let me explain what happened. First of all, just so you understand, it was a crazy night. For example, Kristin just told me that AK called this morning with this news: Sarah Ke woke up in Adam's clothes in Misty's bed. Why, I know not. That is pretty funny. And Sarah Ke made AK call us because for some reason she thought we had done this to her. OK. So yesterday was the May Babies (Susan, Sarah Ke, and Amber) birthday party. If I recall correctly, their birthdays bring out the absolute worst in me. The worst part is that everyone is always so happy for me when I drink because I rarely do, and so they encourage me to the limit. It's terrible. "DON'T encourage me..."

We went to this modern dance show because Amber had done the artwork for it. I liked it; I tend to like weird things like that. I think everyone else was pretty much WTF? over the whole thing. So whatever, there was a girl from my high school in it, I didn't even know she went to school here (Emily Cox). Weird. However, the show then inspired KLA + Scottie to come home and make up our own modern dance to what else but TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART (well I guess Scott didn't dance). Alyssa claims her and I are going on the road, we have a good show going. This in turn made us crazy, and by the time we got to Apt 1 we were in crazy moods and had not even had a drop to drink. Yet. We burst in singing our song, eventually performed it, the whole thing. I think Atom's quote from yesterday says it best - if people didn't already like me, they would have HATED me last night. (Well, maybe they DID hate me regardless.) I was SO ANNOYING and aggressive. It was bad news man...but a good time for me nonetheless.

So yeah, things went all over the place from there. All I can say about the many things that happened is DON'T encourage me. Hah. Sadly I am in school with some of these people, namely Peter, and I remember telling people that over and over. I must have been pretty worried. (Note to self: no more drinking in the presence of schoolmates.) I was also quite violent. This is not a good thing. Oh well, at least I didn't make any threats of bodily harm this time nor actually hurt anyone. "Who ARE you?!"

There are a lot of other things that went on but they are not publishable, or at least not here. If I know you, chances are you've already heard the stories anyway. Let's just say it was a good night, and that May Babies birthdays are dangerous things. Now it is on to trying to write again...school, it's always a good time.

Whew. Intense. Later.

---Lexi