It's amazing how fast it happened, how quickly it all came to be. But what happened? And which part?

I can't stop crying, I can't stop these tears. I just want to know why. I left Vegas with the best feeling in my heart, the happiest of memories and the most joy ever that I had found little Kristin for my roommate and friend. No joke. And I know, I KNOW, I am happy and lucky and ever so grateful for finding these girls I call my True Ten, these women I call my friends. But what kind of friend am I?! What kind of friends are we.

May you rise as you fall... It happened so fast, it all happened so fast, but which part? The beginning . . . or the end? The ever-present end. The thing I cannot get away from.

I don't want Sarah to leave. The fortunate times I do get to see her, I almost cry, knowing that things change, things will change, they have changed. No more little girl. I just don't know what I did wrong, no, WHY I did wrong. Who am I?!!

O U C H.

Was it all a lie? Were we really pretending all along?! I hope to God not. I don't think I believe that. I know I wasn't pretending, at least not for a long time. I know there was love, and that it all meant something. But why are there always ends?

I chose lxforever because of the forever. "BRIKTLXLRSFOREVER!" And every time I put that with anything, it ended up being over, except for one thing: the lx always stayed (duh). I'm always left with me. What does THAT prove?

"Never meant to hurt anyone..." OUCH.

It all happened so fast. Graduation and dissipation. I guess I just didn't see it til now.

Oh, don't worry. "Everything's fine!" Everything's fine. I'm just prone to the dramatic.

...and I miss my friends.